You Cant Always Get What You Want

Great song true words. Sometimes life has a way of opening up the clouds, and shitting on you... That's not a very clever or inspirational saying but you can't tell me it's not true. Like I've mentioned in my earlier posts I've been trying to get an internship for this summer. I applied, and applied, and applied. I even had an interview with a Nordstrom store in Bellevue Washington! A perfect city just a lake away from Seattle, a city I feel in love with three years ago. Nordstrom did call me back, but it wasn't to tell me to start packing my bags. I was sad for a minute but decided to move on. The call came at a time where everything wrong seemed to be happening. But in a way maybe that was a good thing. It showed me what was really important, and made not getting the job not so bad. Of course I'm human and I have my moments of wanting to crawl into a cave and never come out, but once I start to get over whatever seems to be bothering me, I do my best to find a positive in the situation. Sure I want be going somewhere this summer, but I really do love Fargo, why not embrace it while I'm here! I get to stay near my family and friends and I don't have to be away from the kids I nanny for and love so much! I get to spend time with my boyfriend and enjoy Fargo's summer weather.  I can go see Tory hunter bat for the Twins at my favorite stadium. I won't miss some of my best friends 21st birthdays, and most importantly I'll be here for the new Jurassic park movie.  I'll stay here this summer, graduate next year, pack up my trailblazer and drive wherever the wind takes me. I'm a person who likes to have her days, weeks, months and years planed. I'm surprisingly calm with this decision of mine to pack up my bags and hope for the best. Maybe I finally realized I'm only 21, and it would be pretty weird for me to already have my life together.